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Chasing Happiness

After the Rain…

by Amber on March 24, 2012

Last night we had another one of those fabulous Indiana storms. The kind that add the tune of tornado sirens to the air for more than an hour, and send me and mine running for the scant protection of the half bath under the stairs.

It was not the ideal way to start the weekend, to be sure. Especially since our dog (also in the little bathroom with us) had gas, and the toddler had a diaper that was trying to fill with poo.

But survive we did—and we didn’t even have to attempt to protect ourselves with the cast iron pots my husband figured could shield our heads if worst came to worst.

And then? Then the sun came out. Rainbows appeared (really). And Tori discovered the puddles it left behind.

She started in a small one.

Tori starts cautiously, with the smallest puddle.

Tori dips her foot into the first, minor league puddle.

But then she discovered the drainage ditch at the back of the yard. The one that floods after a big rain and rushes with the current of a real river. After that? It was game on.

Tori dips her foot in the drainage ditch.

Cautiously, she dipped her toes in the running water.

 

Tori grinned at the water on her toes.

Surprise! The water's cold.

But she didn’t really want to play in the water by herself. And she wasn’t brave enough to wander out into the middle without holding my hand.

Which is why, a few minutes later, I found myself shoeless, and with my jeans rolled up to my knees, stomping in the muddy water.

Happy feet in the water

You're never too old to jump in puddles, are you?

At first, I was reluctant, and merely stood there. But after Tori looked up at me imploringly and said “stomp, mommy,” I got into the spirit of things.

I stamped cautiously a few times. But after I got used to the feel of mud seeping between my toes, I threw off my stuffy sense of decorum and Tori and I jumped and stomped and splashed our hearts out.

Before long, the water looked like chocolate milk (or so Tori told me). And our legs were speckled with mud.

But we were both grinning from ear to ear. And I? Had forgotten about the horror of the tornado siren entirely.

So if it’s been a while since you jumped in puddles, I suggest you go outside right now and find one. If you feel silly, bring a kid with you. But I promise, you won’t regret the splish-splashing, mud-speckling fun.

Those kids, they’re on to something. We should follow their example more often.

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Restless Heart.

by Amber on February 17, 2012

February makes me itchy. Both literally (I don’t think there’s an ounce of moisture left in my skin) and figuratively.

In fact, as the month wears on, I go a tiny bit bat shit crazy.

Why? Well, because it’s February. It’s cold. It’s cloudy. Even when the sun’s out, there’s not a damn thing to do outside.

So we sit inside. Playing the same games, watching too much TV and trying to explain to the little one why the flowers and the trees and the birds and the bees are still “sleeping.”

I start to notice all the things that are wrong with my house. The black hand prints at toddler level. The juice and cat puke stains on the carpet. The frayed couch arms and disorganized laundry room.

I long to fix it all. All of it. All at once.

I dream of ripping up the carpet and replacing it with wood (or at least fake wood).

Tossing the toy box in the garage and finding some sort of storage system that actually works.

Repainting, well, everything.

Or, better yet, selling the darn thing and starting over.

Instead I download another Dora game for the kiddo.

Then it’s time to go to work, where I spend my days in an office full of other sun starved, coughing people. I stare out the window at the highway and imagine packing up the family. Of hitting the road, bound for…somewhere.

The soothing whisper of palm fronds calls to me.

The ocean’s roar echoes in my brain.

I can practically feel the sand between my toes.

But then an account type reminds me of an upcoming deadline and the dream fades.

I count down the hours of the days, the days of the month, and I wait.

Spring will be here soon. The itch will fade. But until then, I remain just a little bit restless.

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Wasted Time.

October 26, 2011

Once upon a time, in a land not so far away, the Woman I Was stumbles in the door after a long day at work. Ignoring the meowing cats, she plops herself down on the couch for a well-deserved nap. She’s been asleep for a half hour when her husband calls, wondering what she wants [...]

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Putting Life On Pause.

September 20, 2011
Tori starts the long walk to the ocean

At home, there are dishes in need of washing, clothes in need of folding and messes in need of picking up. There are blog posts to write and emails to return. But, as I drive to pick Tori up from daycare, I decide I don’t care. The day, warm again after a cold snap, feels [...]

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The Shorthand of the Long-Married.

September 8, 2011

This afternoon, I had lunch with my husband. When the salads arrived, he put his napkin on his lap, picked up his fork and piled all his croutons on my plate. Meanwhile, I was placing my cucumbers gingerly on the edge of my fork (not wanting to contaminate it with their nasty aftertaste) and dumping [...]

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Amber: Unplugged.

August 22, 2011

You know what I did this weekend, Internet? I took a nap. Hardly shocking behavior, I know. But for me? It was a major accomplishment.  Before I could lie down on the couch and curl up in a ray of sunshine, I had to do two things. Make the difficult decision to ignore my never-shrinking [...]

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