She is Three.

“Mommy,” a little voice called. “Mommy, I had a good dream.”

“You did? Well come on up with mommy and see if you can dream some more,” I replied, reaching through the dark to lift her up  into bed beside me.

Within minutes, she was asleep, hand fisted in my hair. But I lay awake, thinking of how fast the time has flown.

Three years ago today, on a much more blustery morning, I was wheeled into surgery. When an impossibly short time later I heard her first cry, I burst into tears myself.

me and tori in the hospital

My heart shattered that day, unable to contain the love within it. But it was only the first of many earthquakes.

It shook anew the first time I cuddled her close. And the first time she smiled. It swelled with pride when she rolled over for the first time, erupted with joy when she spoke her first words and straight up leapt out of my chest the first time she walked.

tori walks

Every day is a new adventure—some good, some bad. At times, I get so frustrated I feel like screaming (and sometimes do). Other times, she makes me laugh so hard, I think my ribs might crack.

Always, she’s a wonder to me.

And when I think about the incredible little person she’s becoming, I’m proud to call her mine.

She’s doing amazing things—writing her name, spinning stories, even learning to read.

But my favorite moments are still the little ones. Like last night, when she sat curled up in her daddy’s lap, listening to him read her a Curious George story.

And this morning, when she wrapped her arms around my neck and sleepily murmured, “my mommy.”

Yes, baby. I’ll always be your mommy.

And you? Will always be my sunshine.

tori in her favorite dress

Happy Birthday, princess.

4 Comments on She is Three.

  1. Lady Jennie
    April 4, 2012 at 1:56 pm (4 years ago)

    How incredibly sweet! Happy Birthday little one!

  2. Namrata
    April 4, 2012 at 6:02 pm (4 years ago)

    Happy Birthday to sweet little angel! Happy birthday to her mom as well coz this was the day you were reborn as mom!

  3. Charlotte
    April 8, 2012 at 2:00 am (4 years ago)

    How incredibly sweet this post is. Happy birthday to your sweet little girl. Love that photo… and it’s lovely to share in these intimate moments with you both. XOXO

  4. Missy @ Wonder, Friend
    April 10, 2012 at 10:24 pm (4 years ago)

    I am ugly crying! This is beautiful.

    Every year on their birthdays I find myself filled with love and anguish. Motherhood is the most amazingly wonderfully sad experience on the planet.

    Happy 3rd Birthday to both of you!


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