Over the last two years, I’ve tried just about everything to lose weight. I’ve done the diet shake thing. Tried to survive on Special K for two weeks (epic fail). I’ve counted my points and watched my carbs. I even did Atkins for an unfortunate 36 hours.
But nothing worked.
I’d make it for five days, maybe even two or three weeks. I’d lose two or three pounds – sometimes even five. But then my will power would begin to fail. The brownies would sing their siren song. The hamburgers would call to me from their greasy wrappers. The couch would beckon with its comfy butt grooves.
And I’d fall back into my old patterns.
You know why? I didn’t really want to do it. I knew I should. I knew I’d look better and feel better. That I’d have more energy and more confidence in a bathing suit. But it didn’t really matter. I just wasn’t ready.
But you know what? That’s all changed now.
One day, I looked at myself in the mirror and said, “okay, Amber. It’s time to stop screwing around and do this thing.” Not because anyone told me I had to. Not because I have anything I need to look extraordinary for. Just because it’s time.
I’m ready to feel like myself again.
I’m ready to stop worrying whether I can fit into any of the clothes a store offers.
I’m ready to get thin. Or, at least, thinner.
I’ve discovered the missing ingredient to weight loss. And it’s not available in any store. Or on any counselor’s couch. It’s in your mindset, and when you’re ready? You’ll know.
At least, I did.