She is Two.

We blew out the bright pink candle on her birthday cake, and it was official. My baby was One. I tried to pause to enjoy the moment, but she saw me gazing at her and reached up with chocolate hands.

I picked her up and swung her over to the sink to wash her gritty paws and she splashed with glee, sending the water jetting into my eyes. Laughing, I wiped my arm across my face and when I took it away, she was taking her first wobbly steps away, knees shaking with every step.

Tori's first steps

I ran to get the camera and when I came back, she was striding across the floor, all wobbliness forgotten.

From that moment on, I hardly dared blink – the changes came so fast.

The hungry bird mouth that used to wait for me to scoop food into it became an alligator’s jaws, clamping tight around the spoon until I let go so she could maneuver it herself.

Those first wobbly steps turned into a peculiar, pigeon-toed run, as fast as it was adorably awkward.

The plaintive “mama” became “MINE!” before evolving into full-fledged sentences (like “Mama, NO!” MY chalk/toy/universe”).

The high chair moved to the garage, along with the play gym, swing and other baby accoutriments.

The adorably matched outfits I dressed her in turned into a mish mash of stripes, polka dots and garish colors – chosen to suit a toddler’s style.

Even her sweet, grassy baby scent changed – reflecting the larger world she moved in.

My baby is gone, replaced by a sweet, sassy, fiery-tempered toddler whose moods are as changeable as the wind. It’d be enough to break a mommy’s heart, except for the fact that I love this little person she’s becoming more than anything.

And at the end of the day? She still snuggles up close, buries her head in my neck and says, “My mommy. Mommy mine.”

To which the rhythm of my heart answers, “Yes, baby. Mommy’s yours. Always and forever.”

Happy Birthday, Baby Girl.

12 Comments on She is Two.

  1. Rebecca
    April 3, 2011 at 9:50 pm (5 years ago)

    Oh Gosh, Happy Birthday Tori!

    Thanks Amber for letting us in on your little world and sharing your little angel with us. I love watching her grow up.

    • Amber
      April 4, 2011 at 12:13 pm (5 years ago)

      I only hope she enjoys what I said about her once she is a grown up.

  2. erica
    April 3, 2011 at 10:20 pm (5 years ago)

    Oh- what a great post and a great birthday! Happy Birthday, Tori!

  3. Harriet Gano
    April 3, 2011 at 10:41 pm (5 years ago)

    Just beautiful, Amber. I am still wiping the tears from my eyes.

  4. Sara Butler
    April 4, 2011 at 9:57 am (5 years ago)

    That’s sweet Amber…now I’m all verklempt.

    Happy B-day Tori!

    • Amber
      April 4, 2011 at 12:12 pm (5 years ago)

      Verklempt is a positively fabulous word. I need to use that more often.

  5. Jen
    April 4, 2011 at 10:02 am (5 years ago)

    What a beautiful birthday post.

  6. C @ Kid Things
    April 4, 2011 at 10:56 am (5 years ago)

    Aw, what a great post! Happy Birthday!

  7. Andi
    April 4, 2011 at 11:17 am (5 years ago)

    Happy Birthday!!!!!

  8. BalancingMama (Julie)
    April 4, 2011 at 3:18 pm (5 years ago)

    Happy birthday to your sweet baby!!! Mine turns three on Friday. Watch out – they turn into actual KIDS quickly! Don’t blink. Sigh.

  9. Allison @ Alli n Son
    April 6, 2011 at 7:21 pm (5 years ago)

    Happy 2 to your little girl! Enjoy the next year, it will be fun and challenging.

    • Amber
      April 7, 2011 at 9:12 am (5 years ago)

      That’s what I hear. Wish me luck!


Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *

Comment *