I love this blog, I do. But, for the first time, I find myself unable to commit words to screen.
I am feeling unsettled. Unsure. Restless. Worried enough to find myself still awake at 4:39 a.m, eyes red and burning, mind a whirl with an endless carousel of nagging “what-ifs’ and “if-onlys.”
I am not good company right now. I don’t have anything particularly funny, or witty, or insightful to say.
I have only the insecurities of a working mom to talk about. Only the loneliness of a homebody who lives too far from too many of those she loves to dwell on. Only the unshed tears of a woman who’s not sure how much farther she can stretch to share.
I need to rest. Recharge. Find my voice again.
And to do that, I need a little silence. So, I’m going to go quiet for a little while. I’m going to take a short break to ground myself and remind myself what matters.
I’ll be back. Very soon. Promise.
See you on the other side of 35…